How I Followed Jesus Away From Gay

I didn’t think there was a way out.

Many churches and individuals now affirm the gay Christian life and cheer-on LGBTQ Pride. But what if the LGBTQ life isn’t the party—for our neighbors, loved ones, or ourselves—that the world says it is? What if these valuable people are in pain? Pain that sex and Gay Pride won’t heal?

After a life of hopelessness and a suicidal season over my confused sexual identity and unwanted same-sex desires, I discovered that Jesus offered real inner healing and intimate relationship. Since then, I have worked tirelessly to help others experience the same hope and transformation I found.

In The Journey Out, I...

• Demystify homosexuality and gender identity issues.
• Share stories of real transformation of sexual identity.
• Help you form an intimate connection with Jesus and journey toward wholeness and freedom.
• Lead you to meet with God in key areas crucial to growth.
• Offer wisdom for supporters: parents, family, friends, and pastors.

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Do You Ever Wonder?

What does the Bible say about homosexuality?

What can a person do to position themselves to encounter God?

How can people find real freedom from porn and masturbation?

How can we honor God while demonstrating real love to LGBTQ-identified loved ones?

How can pastors, leaders, and parents create an environment conducive to healing for those leaving an LGBTQ identity?

Does anyone ever experience real changes in their sexual identity or desires?

What are the key steps the Lord led Ken through on in his journey out of homosexuality?

Are people born gay?

Is there any emotional fulfillment for those who leave LGBTQ behind?

Is it possible to experience sexual intimacy with an opposite sex spouse if a person has LGBTQ or same sex attraction in his/her past?

This is my story.

I didn’t fit in with the boys, as a child. They didn’t seem to like me, and neither did I. So from first grade, I began to live every day in a fantasy world of codependent fixation on whichever boy in my life I saw as the picture-perfect male. It was how I affirmed myself and coped with a life of hopelessness and self-hatred. My very first sexual desires were for other males. I had none for females. And my pain medication for 20 years was daily addiction to masturbation, which included stents of serious addiction to gay pornography. The shame of those sins and some sexual encounters resulted in a suicidal season at age 17.

It was at this point that I began pursuit of my true sexual identity. The first several years were were frustrating and were only failed attempts at freedom. I couldn’t fathom breaking free of my addictions or ever finding a woman sexually attractive. But eventually, I discovered some kingdom realities and encountered God in areas and ways that transformed me. The following years healed childhood trauma, replaced lies with truth, forged deep intimacy with God, and established self-love and masculine identity. I’m now married to my wife (since 2006), enjoy sexual intimacy with her, and we have four children together.

Today, I’m a pastor who focuses full time on addressing matters of sexual identity.

And I’ve seen many others walk this same journey.

What Others Are Saying

The Journey Out Testimonials

“This book is an excellent blend of testimony, truth, and hope for change through intimate communion with Jesus and His body.”

—Andrew Comiskey
Executive Director, Desert Stream Ministries

“What I wouldn’t have given to have had this book as a guide! Beautiful story, beautifully written.”

— Joe Dallas
Counselor and author of Desires in Conflict

“This book is not only for people who want freedom from same-sex attraction; it will empower every reader with a greater understanding and an unshakable hope of God’s goodness and His plan for redemption in one of the greatest cultural issues of our day.”

— Bill Johnson
Senior Leader, Bethel Church (Redding, CA)

“The Journey OUT creates moments with God where we are enveloped with His goodness and exposed to His ways; shame will have no hold over your heart or mind after exploring the well-written words, startling questions, and catalytic activations found within this book!”

—Kris Vallotton
Leader, Bethel Church (Redding, CA)
Co-founder, Bethel School of Supernatural Ministry

“This book is a helpful read for everyone who wants the church to be a safer community for people with same-sex attraction. I also highly recommend this for anyone who wants to come out and come home to the Father.”

—Ian Toh
Senior Pastor of 3:16 Church Singapore
Co-founder of TrueLove.Is Ministry

“At this timely and risky moment, Ken’s book is a witness to our generation of how God touches the lives of those who seek Him wholeheartedly.”

—PASTOR ELIZABETH WONING, MATS
Co-founder, CHANGED Movement & Equipped To Love

“The world says people like Ken do not exist. His testimony shouts back that all things are possible in Jesus.”

—Michael L. Brown, Ph.D.
Host of the Line of Fire broadcast
Author of Can You Be Gay and Christian?

“You will be drawn into the humanity of the story and walk away with a deeper sense of understanding about what God is doing on the earth in this community.”

—Caitlin and Cole Zick
Directors, Moral Revolution
Author (Caitlin) of Look at You, Girl

“Ken gave me the courage to walk away from the thing that was killing me.”

—B. R. (California)

"My testimony of being sober from pornography and masturbation is just the surface. Because of Ken, I am a man who is fully secure in myself. I love the way I look, I love the way God made me, and I am not ashamed of others seeing me as weak. I used to almost never cry, and now I do so on a regular basis. Not because I’m always sad, but because I finally know how to feel instead of always numbing my pain away, and I’m not ashamed of allowing myself to do so. Ken, thank you for being the man to model this kingdom lifestyle to me. Thank you for accepting and loving me when I thought no one would. You are a model to the world of what masculinity is, and I couldn’t be more thankful to have you in my life.”

— T.B. (Ohio)

“‘Homosexuality and the church’ is probably one of the most defining subjects of our time and Ken Williams is one of the most compassionate, knowledgeable advocate voices in this arena. I have sat with him numerous times as he answered the complex questions with wisdom and poise, accurately representing Jesus’ love and redemptive power to a generation lost and trapped in the confusion of secular thinking. He is a true testimony of authentic masculinity, Christ-like husbands and committed fathering. It’s my privilege to call him friend.”

— Graeme Morris
Conference speaker & pastor (Kelowna, British Columbia)

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